Trump

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You

       sing

Major/minor

Supreme.

                     We         v.         Us(e)

                                 Court                

                                      Martial/n/

                                                   law

Branding machinewash hang dry spin fold repeat

Yourself cleanupafter come on everybody cmon

Bring it on

Your best

Game face cocks

Theory of relativity 

The Internet

Of 

Things

No, Not

Y

losing perspective on balance

no longer understanding what is up or down, right or wrong. looking in the mirror and not understanding the role you are about to go out and perform, but somehow, you do.

the audience pauses, then applauds. polite.

no standing ovation tonight.

tomorrow, tomorrow. there’s a chance. what’s that line scarlett says?

and tomorrow comes. and still you aren’t prepared – you certainly don’t feel prepared. the feeling of utter and complete failure if you don’t have every. single. damn. thing. memorized. motions. lines. but you ad-lib it and, maybe, just maybe, your timing is good. the audience laughs. you relax, and it shows. this part was meant for you, and we see it play out. this is an interaction. this is performance art.

and yet the all or nothing sensation looms, lingers. and of course when the audience does not somehow give you what you were hoping for — even though you didn’t consciously realize that you had any expectations — you are crushed. your worth is measured in how you reflect back at yourself through their reactions.

all or nothing.
me/them.

“i
guess”
what do
i know?
reeling.

i am not
an actress

what does it mean

we are all autonomous actors
but we are not acting alone (+/-)
without the influence of others/outside factors and forces

who wrote the script?
who is editing it now?
do you know your next line?
are you in the right place, right now?

i see myself in you.
what do you see in me?

Does noise sound the same from here to there as it does coming in?

noise. filter. blur. sharpen. render. distort.

even with ears stopped up and covered, the sound of energy never fully dulls-it makes its way through with a lightly pulsating, high pitched squeal, a tone almost above what it feels human to be capable of hearing.

the electric circuitry of life. now inside us. buzzing. bending. breaki-break-breakin-brea-bea-bea-beating inside us. nonstop\

go

have a cup of coffee. plug into the wall. text your loved ones, hello/goodbye.

i want to feel skin, i hear that’s how it breaks the spell. there will be static at first. cold like abandoned machinery, a car that has not been started in a long, long time. giving off sparks like the screen of an old television, a desktop computer from 1997, turned on after being off overnight or while you were away on vacation:     POP! …

Snap. snap me. snap! let’s take a pic! look at me! do you like this one? omg stop. what’s your name again? whatshername, whatshisnuts, whatsherguts. what’s your number? whats your @? where should I send it? paypal venmo soundcloud facebook tinder twitter gmail gchat whatsapp, pay attention! wya? pay attention to me! look at this! look at that! is that your girl? i’ve got a girl. you need to get your girl. damn, girl. look like a snack. sneaky snakes. watch your back! i’ve got your back. lend me a hand. shoot me a text. text me back! send me that video! i didn’t see it. didn’t hear my phone. i never got it. idc. idk. having a bad day. send me something funny. this isn’t funny anymore. where did you see that? where did you find that? where did you get that? send me the link. send me your location. learn the waze. ride the wave. i saw it in the group chat. i’m not in the group chat. lololol crying emoji

…pop…

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…pop.

noise. filter. blur. sharpen. render. distort.

shut down. reboot\

return

(to each other)

power

sending signals across the grid: traveling

do you think that magic can be defined? confined within some pages or books or words or walls or contained by jars or housed in shops that claim to sell you spells? connection is magic.

m-a-g-i-c

5

letters

i have for some time wanted to write to you in longhand. Longhand! imagine. how silly! why? because i feared that you would one day find this. read this. and you will. you will have. by the time you are reading this, it has been discovered.

we are so true to what we are. all signs point back to our true selves. circular, geometric. the rule. the law. made to be broken. i, the virgin. by you, the challenger. the goat. and who else but us? all could not have attended without the parties of the past and present. ghosts arrive and depart and arrive. the party. the ball. the bull. the snake: medusa? twins. born of this world and yet not. we hear them breathe and hiss. and laugh.

and how they laugh. with us or at us? I don’t care anymore. it doesn’t matter. oh well

and now that you can read it, what do you think?

now that you can see me clearly, are you. . . surprised? repulsed? are you pleased? does it

does it

i think we both knew it would come to this. that it would end up here. that these words would land on this surface. your eyes would fall on them, and you would comprehend their meaning as i intended.

3:

appearance. what does it look like? doesn’t matter. all you have to do is show up.

now start a fire, make a spark. start

5 letters

37.17

you will always remember the first

the first person, the first time, the first experience. the first time you came to understand something.

you say you will never drink the koolaid, as you take a long sip of the cool liquid. we all get thirsty. sugar. water.

years of conditioning — hell, it only takes a few weeks, really. you get deeply immersed, blinded, by accident. depending on your makeup, of course. and then. snap. you’re doing something you’re saying you would never do. you’re doing it right now. are you much different?

words. these words we say. we say. we do. we throw away cents and sense. we know little, we know nothing. we know less and less as we get older. we make mistakes, and. . .  the more we speak? we wish we could rescind that last statement, but only long after the conversation ended. we play pretend. we play dress up. pretending to be adults. pretending to be people. trying on the skins of who we would like to be, someday.

d0 you remember?

do you remember the first time?